Day 4

I have the OVERWHELMING urge to log on! Why? Simply because I might have an offline message. However, I have the sneaking suspicion that even when I log on (IF I log on) after 7 days, there will be no message. Thinking like that is helping curb my craving, so...whatever works!

Captain's and my friend, Jules, expressed the desire to experience crazy love. I'm not sure she knows what she wold be getting herself into, but everyone is certainly entitled to a little irrationality in their lives. The problem with me is that I have no stabilizing factor. This is what I'm working on....

I ran into part of the Fabulous Five today and caught them up on on that latest with Soldier (he is the hot topic after all!). Seems I don't know how to PLAY. I go straight from clicking with someone to "I never want to be without you" (see, Jules, this is the crazy part). THIS could be a flaw....

Playing.... having a good time....not getting "serious".... all things I need to practice.

Now just someone to practice with.....

(9:08 p.m.)

Oh lord....if I make it through tonight.... It's actually a week today that all the crap started with Soldier. I'm halfway through the seven days today. Three more days to go! I'm gonna give the boy a bath and watch a movie.