Something is majorly wrong with me (apparently "majorly" is not a real word...oh well). Why o why would I believe someone I chatted with on the internet would actually have a genuine interest in me?

I guess because I can have a genuine interest with someone I chat with on the internet. Isn't everyone like me?!

I truly desire that I could see myself for the idiot that I apparently am, or in the words of a close friend...dingbat. How can I keep my head in the clouds despite so many negatives and then what is it that makes me so incapable of changing the way I think or the way I feel when the facts are staring me in the face. It's extremely disconcerting to be this way. I must have been made this way for some reason.

I will prevail...